My #1 Fan

On May 26th I lost my number one fan.  She read my blog posts constantly and was the one who inspired me to start writing in the first place.  My grandmother "Grabby" was an amazing person.  Even though a few months have past it seems like it was just yesterday we were planning a train trip around the country.  I have never been at a lost for words, but when I think about her I have nothing to say.  Only for her funeral was I able to think of something, even though it did no justice to how I felt or the relationship we had with each other.  Since then I have not been able to put into words anything about her or how I feel.  I have never experienced a loss so close or a grief so great.

Until We Meet

Briana Payne

You can rest now for you have done enough,

But I still have much to do until we meet again

Until we meet, I must study up on my Jeopardy trivia,

Because you would never answer my phone calls when your show was on.

I must practice my acting skills,

Because you are not going to beat me out-acting Ms. Scarlett.

I must continue to suffer through Clint Eastwood film’s,

Because I know how you love your “shoot ‘em up” movies.

And I must keep reading until I can’t keep my eyes open,

Because you introduced me to almost every book I have read.

Until we meet, I will grow mentally and spiritually,

Because you taught me something new every time we talked.

I will pass your stories and wisdom to my own children,

Because you passed them to my mommy and me.

I will travel to all the places we dreamed of,

Because in heaven we will have new adventures to plan.

And I will practice my sprints,

Because when we meet your legs will have “grown back”

And I know you will be ready to race.

Until we meet “parting is such sweet sorrow,”

But “in my father’s house are many mansions,”

And mine is right next to you.