Let Go and Let God

Let Go.

Briana Payne

Did I really know what it meant to be-

A Christian,

Someone who lives for God, who submits themselves, who from sin is-

Free.

Did I really know who this being, this entity, this God-

Was? I highly doubt it-

Because,

I continued on my sinful path, the one where I acted and did everything I did before I was saved only now I wore the title of-

Christian.

I was blinded by my own foolishness, my own wickedness

My. Own. Sin.

My Christianity was fake. An act. Façade. I. was. The Hypocrite.

The one that sang and praised at church but did not have the Ho-ly Spi-rit-

Within.

How could I have believed everything was-

Fine,

when the bible says” let your light so-

Shine.

Before men that they may see your good works and glorify. Your. Father. In hea-ven.

My light was a dim spark that would show and then die-

Out. When. I. was-

Away.

From church, and family, and those who I used my Christianity as a-

Display.

 For. Someone to follow. To look up to. To. Look. To. For-

Advise.

How could I help others when I did not even recognize my-

Own disguise.

Not until I was faced with suffering did I begin to look to God, and read my bi-ble, and-

Pray.

Not the way I did in church where I would read and listen but not-

Obey. I don’t think I have ever read the bible like I had-

That day.  The time I felt so alone and down like there was no-

Way.

Little did I know that it was not when. Or how. Or-

What.

I was trying to do everything alone, by myself;

I did not fully understand that it was not me that could make ev-‘ry-thi-ng al-right-

But.

God.

I learned to submit to God. To confess my sins to God. Trust in God. IN. GOD.

I knew that everything was his-

Will.

And I would never get anywhere-

Until.

I let go.

And-

Let.

God.